at least 3 she-s, wonder out loud "why won't she talk to me?"

my best reason is, that I am skeptical towards respecting someone more than they respect me. why entertain such a power struggle where one's not wanted? that is not friendship it is work, it is servitude.

I am through with taking a knee before the undeserving, to humor my humility. it's humiliating, really.

I won't stand for it.